“I think, Mr. Gray, there are tremors around us. Like the vibrations of a note of music. Hidden music. Some might be more attuned to them than others. What do those people do, those who have been chosen? They endure uniqueness.
To be alien. To be disenfranchised from those around you. Is that not a dreadful curse?
To be different. To be powerful. Is that not a divine gift?
To be alone. To be seeking. What?
Another. Like you. Who shares your rarity.
Then you are no longer unique. Nor are you alone.”
– Vanessa Ives, Penny Dreadful
“The world is filled with people who are no longer needed—and who try to make slaves of all of us—and they have their music and we have ours. Theirs, the wasted songs of a superstitious nightmare—and without their musical and ideological miscar-riages to compare our Song of freedom to, we’d not have any opposite to compare music with—and like the drifting wind, hitting against no obstacle, we’d never knows its speed, its power.”
– Woody Gurthie, Tiffanie DeBartolo, How to Kill a Rock Star
“Where the mind is without fear
and the head is held high;
Where knowledge is free;
Where the world has not been
broken up into fragments by
narrow domestic walls;
Where words come out from
the depth of truth;
Where tireless striving stretches
its arms towards…”
I apologise for the lack of posts but the holidays and new year have been keeping us all busy! I hope you all had a great holiday with loved ones and that you bid farewell to 2014 remembering the good memories of that year but also welcomed 2015 with the intention of continuing further in one’s self-discovery, spiritual nourishment and the many more new memories to come. Alhamdulillah (praise be to God) for having blessed us with another year no matter the struggles we may have encountered to reach 2015, in the end we reached it a different person from how we started off as in 2014 and for that we should remain thankful.
I will leave this post with a quote from On Keeping a Notebook in Slouching Towards Bethlehem by Joan Didion:
“I think we are well advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be, whether we find them attractive company or not. Otherwise they turn up unannounced and surprise us, come hammering on the mind’s door at 4 a.m. of a bad night and demand to know who deserted them, who betrayed them, who is going to make amends. We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget.”
“A stirring warmth flowed from her, as if her heart was trying to come out to you concealed in one of those breathless, thrilling words.”
“If your dreams don’t scare you, they aren’t big enough”
This quote has never felt so relate-able to me than now; I am at a point in my life where I am being truly tested, I am faced with making the first of many big decisions in life and the thought of stepping out of the boundaries, stepping out of my comfort zone seems scary but exciting. Its scary because you’ve never been in that new situation before so you don’t know how you will handle it but you put your trust in God because trusting in yourself in these types of situations can be shaky and unstable. It is in our instincts to go from one thing to another, our heart’s are so vulnerable that they can change at last notice, the heart places it love on different things from time to time and when your brain is going a million miles, its at that moment that you realise that putting your trust in God is the most stable ground you can take your first steps from. That is a believer’s unwavering platform.
“I’m thinking of a queer feeling I sometimes get, a feel that I’ve got something important to say and the power to say it – only I don’t know what it is, and I can’t make any use of the power.”
– Aldous Huxley, Brave New World